back with a vengence!
My Dear Child,

I was spoiled rotten...I had almost three weeks of relative "normalacy" and was almost to the point of understanding why women say they enjoy pregnancy. I think a taste is worst than none at all...the last three days I have been SICK. Sunday night was probably the worse...I was up most of the night throwing up bile and being miserable. I went to the doctor Monday morning and she told me to go home and sleep after the appointment, which I did gratefully. Today I lost breakfast and am queasy and uncomfortable... I want to cry, or curl up in a WARM bed, or something...

Besides being generally miserable, things seems to be going pretty well for you. Dr. D took our measurements and had no comments or cautionary notes like the last appointment. I was sent home with a large box of birthing supplies for HomeFirst staff and a copy of my records, for "just in case". I'm suppose to buy a bunch of things, including a shower curtain, adult underware, and chux pads this week. It's coming down to the finishline... I'm still not sure I believe it. Everything seems surreal.

Part of that is work...I kept hoping that once the new staff was hired, it would be easier, but that doesn't seem to have happened. I guess it's partly because of the impending maternity leave, but there is a sense of urgency to get all this stuff done. Maybe it's just that I'm more tired than I used to be?

I know it's foolish to think or hope that life will be better after you arrive...your new "independence" from me will come with a host of new stresses and worries and passions...but I keep thinking that at least I will have a reason to stay in my jammies and home! There will be a day when I curse that logic and crave time for a shower and a night out, but right now it sounds really good to me!